First of all, I am sorry for falling off the grid. First, things were difficult medically and then when I recovered from that the cold weather hit here full force. I am a human barometer, so when the weather first changes my body does not adapt well at all. I have made it back to the gym, though, which is a good indication that my body is adjusting, yay! So, my hope is to not fall off the grid again; or at least give warning when I need to! I found this wonderful pin on Pintrest, that lead me to a free ten-page blog planner toolkit! I will be using it! The weekly checklist will help me stay on task. If you want to check it out for yourselves, here is the link to the blog where it is located:
Next, work is still pretty much the same, I did get assigned a large project to help one of our departments to pass their audit coming up. Not only am I organizing the client information but I am also checking the documentation for quality assurance nice thing to be able to put on my resume! Not to mention, I am glad to actually be busy. When I don’t have much to do, the day slithers by too slowly.
December brings a mix of emotions for me, especially, these last couple of years. I love the Advent season. I light the candles, and I have such a sweet time reading books and focusing on what my savior has done for me. But, as the year comes to a close I begin to survey the past year and I am often left feeling like I haven’t done much, haven’t reached goals; for some reason I get caught up in all of my failures. Recently. I heard a sermon from one of the Pastors from Elevation Church that really helped me to refocus. Not that my failures have disappeared but my failures are actually fertilizer.
The Pastor spoke about the Parable found in Luke 13:6-9:
And he told this parable: “A man had a fig tree planted in his vineyard, and he came seeking fruit on it and found none. 7 And he said to the vinedresser, ‘Look, for three years now I have come seeking fruit on this fig tree, and I find none. Cut it down. Why should it use up the ground?’ 8 And he answered him, ‘Sir, let it alone this year also, until I dig around it and put on manure. 9 Then if it should bear fruit next year, well and good; but if not, you can cut it down.’”
From the sermon I took the following understanding: For a year and a half I got comfortable and I started to depend on myself and another person to meet my needs rather than God Himself. I depended on my work history, my internships, my connections, my education and a person instead of God. My life stopped producing good fruit. God is holy and He does not want dying fruit. But Christ in His grace stepped in and said let me step in and help her produce good fruit. In order to help me produce good fruit Christ has dig down to the root, find out what is stopping the nutrients not getting to the roots. The same concept of finding the spiders instead of simply destroying the cobwebs (See Day 24). Than. after the roots are exposed manure must be poured around the edges to build up the plant. Manure is often our failures, the painful things, the dry spots, the wilderness wonderings. So, I may not have accomplished all of my goals, things felt frustrating and dry but my hope comes because I know my failures are my fertilizer . I know that God has been working through each moment of my life so that I will bear fruit for Him.
On that note, if you remember on Day 9 I wrote a post called “Create a job for me!” Well, today I am having a conversation with the president of Cairn University. I am not sure what is going to come of this phone call but I am praying it is an open door… Wish me luck!