As you know, last Saturday I moved into my new apartment and I wrote that having my own place would motivate me to work harder at my avocation. This all still holds true the break I am taking is from applying for a different full-time job. It’s not that I don’t need or want a new full-time job but; the rejections (or even worse, complete silence) is wearing me thin. I am taking a break from the job search for at least another 30 days.
At the beginning of the year, I started a devotional/prayer guide put out by Lifeway Women called “Redeemed.” You can find the guide here: 40 Days of Prayer. I have decided to use this devotional to spend time in prayer asking God for clarity, direction, and trust for my future. So far, I have enjoyed my devotional times very much. This guide asks you to read a few psalms a day and to allow what you have read in the Psalms to guide your prayer time. I usually don’t share what I learn during my devotional time publically because to me; devotional time is for the individual and God but a revelation came to me the other day while I was praying that gave me freedom to ask God to for success and financial freedom. Often, I am afraid to ask for such things because of the prevalence of the “health and wealth gospel.”
In many of the Psalms at the beginning of the book, there is a comparison between the righteous and the wicked. Several times within the first 12 Psalms David is asking for God to destroy the wicked in general or to destroy his personal enemies. Now, I know that “the wicked” and David’s personal “enemies” were real people, promoting injustice and trying to kill the innocent. But, for some reason, when I was reading Psalm 3 a particular verse made something click in my brain. In Psalm 3 David is crying out to God and writes:
Arise, O Lord; save me, O my God!
For You have smitten all my enemies on the cheek;
You have shattered the teeth of the wicked. (Psalm 3:7 NASB)
As I read these words in congruence with the other Psalms where the writers were asking for their enemies to be destroyed I realized that our enemies don’t always have to be people. Our greater enemy can be working through situations, situations that are keeping us enslaved to someone or something other than God Himself. In my life, the situation that came to my mind was my debt. I do realize that because I went to school and pursued multiple degrees I brought this debt on myself. I enslaved myself to debt. As long as I am in debt I am not free. As long as I am in debt I cannot give generously, I cannot meet the needs of others, I am not even free to give of my time. This is not how God intended me to live. I am not asking him to make me successful so I can live in a mansion, drive a BMW and have a private jet. I am asking him to bring about success so I can take care of myself and give freely and generously to others. I have every right to cry out to God and ask Him to be successful and “shatter the teeth” of my debt